(late) weekly update 03.05.2024
I forgot to do this yesterday, whoops!
What did I watch? Been watching Superstore with my mother at night. It's fun, though a bit odd at times. I've been continuing my Babylon 5 rewatch and am about to begin By Any Means Necessary, which I think is a great episode. I've also been watching lots of Penguins of Madagascar again, my most beloved silly show.
What did I listen to? The Spotify playlist This Is Pet Shop Boys. Still rotating Being Boring in my mind, but also Can You Forgive Her? reminds me of one of my favorite asshole OCs. I've been writing a lot about that OC, Graham, while listening to that song. That's chiiiiiiiiildish, so chiiiiiiiildiiiiiiiiish.......
What did I do? Worked on some original works, actually wrote some of my novel RFOGL for the first time since Nov 2023!!!!! Which i great and really important to me. I love my novel but I have a clinical lack of motivation that makes it extremely hard for me to follow through with things. I'm now on 17.5k and I started writing this 2 years ago, to give you an idea. But hey! Progress is still progress!
What did I think about? Stressing over school, mostly. I'm... considering dropping out. That "clinical lack of motivation" I mentioned? Yeah, it ruins almost every aspect of my life, as does my perfectionism. I thought this was the right time for me to go back, but I guess not. Ugh. I mostly wanted to go back to school because I wanted something to do with my days, because I was eternally bored, but tbh I'm still eternally bored just with the added stress of school. I think maybe the boredom is a symptom of mental health issues I didn't realize, because its just Always There. Okay I won't negatively ramble anymore haha. I'm just in a Weird Place i guess.